camysarusrex

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 06:10:37 GMT

"So scared to fall in love, but tired of being alone, I remember all those tears, And the pain they have shone.
Now no longer with youth, But old enough to say, I can't ignore these memories I live with, I live with them everyday."

kbye.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 04:08:44 GMT

this is how i say bye.

"I've been friends with you for more than a year, you should just be happy with that. i unno why your getting all butt-hurt."

bye.

saturday effing night.

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 22:15:14 GMT

no i wasn't in that mix.

mix together anjali, anna, herboyfriend luis, sarah, hannah mae, tara, a quick stampeed
of boys, uhh i dont remember that one guy that sarah, anjali and tara made out with, peter hayes & his gf, some vodka jack daniels & 211 that i didn't really drink & pringles and pizza, topped with christian's bel air mansion = my weekend. to go into details would just make my head hurt lol.

breathe.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 23:33:42 GMT

"i dreamt of a fever,
one that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart.
with heat to melt these frozen tears and burned with reasons
as to carry on.
into these twisted months i plunge without a light to follow
but i swear that i would follow anything
if it would just get me out of here.
and so you get six months to adapt
and then you get two more to leave town.
in the event that you do adapt we still might not want you around.
and i fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
but i know that that is impossible now.
and so i drink to stay warm
and to kill selected memories
because i just can't think anymore about that or about her tonight
i give myself three days to feel better
or i swear i'll drive right off a fucking cliff
because if i can't make myself feel better
then how can i expect anyone else to give a shit
and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere
just get me past this dead and eternal snow
because i swear that i am dying, slowly but its happening
and if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere
just take me there and lie to me and say it's going to be alright
its going to be alright, yeah you worry too much kid,
its going to be alright."

Bright Eyes - "If Winter Ends"

im stressed out, kinda sad, and lonely.
and i've lost a lot of hope in the things
i care about. i need a shrink or maybe a nap.
and someone to give me a good hug.
not a fake hug one with love
i dont give fake hugs. & most hugs given
to me are fake. but this isn't about hugs
this is about mr takagaki & all his glory.
and how ms henderson decides straightened hair
looks good on her.
and how i just want some to come outside with me
and we lay down and breathe.
im sad so something has got to change.

dancedance.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 03:23:25 GMT

cute<3
i actually like this picture
i usually find something wrong
with me on everyone of my picture
but this one i like. yay.
now to go study my heart out.
let finals week be over already
=O
but monday i have off. yayuh
& friday is a minimum day!

she wants revenge

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 00:05:51 GMT

ah yes.
well last night i saw She Wants Revenge & Monsters are Waiting
at the el rey with my two friends gerald & albert.
thanks for albert we were 2 and a half hours early.
score.
anyway, being the first ones in line we amused ourselves
by trying to have the world record for the longest hand slide
but failed at 7 slaps. then they talked to a kroq guy.
eventually a couple more people came blah blah. not thaaaat many.
but we walked in and I bought albert a she wants revenge shirt
for his birthday. we were front left of the stage, very nice spot.
i dont like blindside or whatever that band was called.
i liked monsters are waiting the girl looked like my kandlace and
and shook it like karen O. thenn finally she wants revenge came on
and it was amazing i loved hearing them live, when they sung tear you apart
everyone sung along especially this fat drunk lady that made her way right
next to me and described the lead singer as being "mind blowing".
then some lady got her shirt ripped off..kinda. and there were a
few couples around me that really took to heart the meaning "i want to hold you close, skin pressed aganist me tight...as i whisper in your ear i fucking tear you apart"
all in all i loved it. the lead singer of she wants revenge is really cute.

and now my lower body feels like a noodle
it could have been the 6 and half hours of standing
or it could have been the butt push ups i did in bellydancing
today. im gonna go take a nap now..beautiful nap.

dont be shy girl go banaza. shake your body like a belly dancer.

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 00:37:48 GMT

ahh i woke up feeling nice because i slept a
good 10 hours. then unfortunatly played the sims
again =/
stupid sims.
im not a pervert..kinda. but why dont they have
sex on the sims? ahh they do is kiss grab each others
butts. its retarded. anyway!!..
i went to my bellydancing class its nice because it
was me and this girl named Jessica. and i must say
we shook our laffy taffy's. the lady was nice & so was
that girl. so im gonna be buying the package where you can have 5 sessions.

excitttinnggg.
laura didn't call me back so i tink
i'm not going to ruffi's partay.

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 04:46:36 GMT

my day:

that is the last time i pay
50 cent for a blow...pop.
now to eat frozen pizza things.
preferably microwaved.

circumsized

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 00:12:50 GMT

so i went to church
then went to the art store
to finish some work for my art class
last minute of course. thats how g's ride.

speaking of g's i love these monkey's right here..

cambells..mm mm good.

so since 1:30 till 7:00 im probably gonna be painting
i hope i finish or my art teacher is gonna spray paint in my eye.
nah i dont think so. but her angry face is so much uglyer than her
real face so i wont be looking forward to that tomorrow if that happens.
she looks like a shashee dog. [shaggy] =D

well tomorrow is the first day of school until june when I graduate.
im not sure what to think. maybe it'll be a rollercoaster and i hold on
till 10am on June 23rd. or maybe it'll just go by reallly reallly slow.
i want it to go at a simple pace to enjoy every last minute of hs.
SIKE!
i unno i just dont want it to be stressfull. i want it to be fun.
which i guess it has been.

mmm..

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 17:58:45 GMT

so far away and i just dont see you.

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 17:53:45 GMT

mang i seriously want longer hair. nooo joke.
its driving me up the wall like why dont my hurr
grow. anywho im gonna babysit my sister's today and
get 30 bucks for it so i tinkz thas koo. its only till
4 anyway. then my other sister gets off of school and
can babysit them muahaha. lol. im probably getting new ipod
earphones today seeing that mines have been for since like ever.
then maybe go to nordstorms to get some clothing because i have
a gift card there which is nice :]
yesterday i hung out with my ex-boyfriends sis.
i consider her my friend so i usually dont call her my ex-boyfriend's
sister. *coughjenessa.
kandlace knows whats up.
anyway. i went to her house and we watched that movie "sky high"
really cute movie. and eric came back from fresno yesterday
and walked into the room with the "wtf are you doing here camy?" look.
it was priceless ^-^
its like im no one to him anymore. like i wouldn't exist one day and he'd be
pefectly fine with it. and that unfortunatly hurts. freakin' loser.

tegan & sara andhearts

i love nuns

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 22:25:27 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
i went to church
and I sat next to a nun and the mayor.
interesting.
im going to my Uncle Mario's which is weird because I dont like him much.
but I like dogs and hopefully the food is good. :)
KANDACE'S SWEET SIXTEENTH.
I wish I was a popular girl on l.j. I wish I had friends and I wish i had some realy good chewing gum right now....and boyfriend

im hung up on you.

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 03:54:42 GMT

my day was ghey.
I wish i was madonna.
not really.
ha

yeah definatly

i love this song..
2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

In May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a Day", he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.
anna nalick - breathe

cute. much.
i miss my boytoy lol. no i dont yes i do no i dont.
i cant but i do.

stuf.

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 19:11:06 GMT

hahaha, i hate the way my hair looks when i just wash it
its like when i take the hair out of my brush and put
it in a little ball.
why am i writing in this thing.
i only have one friend lol
i should go make my bed.
gawd.